Yesterday…
This is an oldie but goodie. I wrote this a while ago but in good ol' Facebook fashion, it popped up in my memories. This is when I realized I was finally able to write again. Check it out!
Yesterday was hard. Harder than you will ever know. It’s a day I have been anticipating for some time and I was wondering how I’d truly navigate it. Yesterday, I was flooded with memories of phrases like “you’re toxic” and “these are patterns for you,” that ripped me apart. Phrases I’ve had to fight really hard to keep from consuming and overwhelming me.
Although a challenge, yesterday, I was reminded of God’s grace and His faithfulness. At sunrise yesterday, I sat and talked to God. I told Him what I thought I’d need for the day and asked Him to not only fill in the blanks but to BE the blanks. As always, in good old Daddy fashion, He showed up with lots of love, loads of grace, mounds of peace and mountains of hope for tomorrow.
You see, yesterday was a love I thought I knew but today and forever is a love I didn’t know I needed; one I never want to live without. Yesterday shattered me and it’s taken years to come to terms; to feel the feelings and hurt yesterday caused. And even still, with the pain and hurt, yesterday was awe-inspiring. Unforgettable, even.
Yesterday, I finally closed the door to ill-spoken promises of home and fully embraced an infinite, limitless, unbroken promise of forever and always. Yesterday was and is beautiful but the hope I opened my heart to today is unmatched.
Today, I was awaken to the reminder that I’m not toxic, but white as snow. As I look out at my yard, I’m reminded of the broken sticks and the dirt patches that should be covered by grass . Yet, I see a beautiful sheet of white snow that has gracefully covered all the blemishes and created a pearly, white masterpiece.
Yesterday paused my writing. Yesterday stopped the words from flowing. Yesterday bruised the inner parts of me. But thanks to one very special friend and a gentle prompting, I’m back; seizing the day and hoping for tomorrow. Yesterday is gone, replaced by hope.
